Don't Worry

Another one about Rachel and I.

We met in Wellington when I had travelled there to play in a 7s tournament, with my team from Invercargill, which is at the bottom of the south island of New Zealand, so for the first year of our relationship, we were in a long distance, north island- south island relationship.

It was hard only seeing each other every few weeks, but we managed. At the end of my first year, I was going back to London for 6 weeks to spend Christmas with my family. She knew that my parents weren't approving of our relationship, and she was worried that I might not come back.

I asked her if she thought I'd start seeing someone else while I was away. "No- I don't doubt you at all. I've never met anyone like you." She said.

I'm very emotionally transparent- I'm easy to read. It was pleasing to know that she trusted me to that degree, as it's difficult to verbally express to someone that you are that trustworthy without giving the impression that you are exactly the opposite.

"Don't worry." I told her. And I came back.

The song (rough draft): https://youtu.be/BsmnKf0wESA

The lyrics:

Don't Worry Lyrics

You're an island away, you hear my voice every day

I know it's not quite the same, but there is no-one to blame

And now, I'm gonna be gone, you are still number one

And now that I've go to fly, there's no-one else on my mind.

It's not hard to see, you know I'm easy to read

Don't worry, don't worry.

You're never alone, I'm at the end of the phone

Don't worry, don't worry.

It's always gonna be hard, we're normally far apart

But we know we pass the test, we're better than all the rest

Next year is gonna be better, we'll be living together

No more heavy goodbyes, no more wondering why.

I… do…

Hope… you….

Know…. that….

I'm coming back.

It's not hard to see, you know I'm easy to read

Don't worry, don't worry.

You're never alone, I'm at the end of the phone

Don't worry, don't worry.

It's not hard to see, you know I'm easy to read

Don't worry, don't worry.

You're never alone, I'm at the end of the phone

Don't worry, don't worry.

It's not hard to see, you know I'm easy to read

Don't worry, don't worry.

Don't ever be sad, you know I'm coming back

Don't worry, don't worry.

This Game Lyrics

To-day

You look right ahead, but you feel like it's running away

I .. do…

believe how you feel, 'cause I've been caught in that day, too.

This game they play can't be won by two

What you gonna say, now, what you gonna do?

They're all here and they're lookin' at you

What you gonna say, now, what you gonna do?

This… game

You just have to play, 'cause it's part of your life all the same.

This… fear

Not of who you are, but of how you are made to appear.

This game they play can't be won by two

What you gonna say, now, what you gonna do?

They're all here and they're lookin' at you

What you gonna say, now, what you gonna do?

This game they play can't be won by two

What you gonna say, now, what you gonna do?

They're all here and they're lookin' at you

What you gonna say, now, what you gonna do?

Solo

This game they play can't be won by two

What you gonna say, now, what you gonna do?

They're all here and they're lookin' at you

What you gonna say, now, what you gonna do?

This game they play can't be won by two

What you gonna say, now, what you gonna do?

They're all here and they're lookin' at you

What you gonna say, now, what you gonna do?

The Time Is Now Lyrics

Ooh__ Ai___

Ooh__ Ai___

You know it's gonna be tough

But you hope that you've got enough

You'v been building all this time

To be sure that you get it right and it's now

S o you give it all you've got

You can't tell if you're right or not

And you think that you crash and burn

And you see there's so much to learn

and it's now

And the time is now

And you know that

You don't wanna go

And you know that….

And you find what you never thought was there

And you give till theres nothing left

And they say that you're someone new

But there's nothing else you could do and its now

And the time is now

You can't let it go

Cause you want it so

You won't let it go

Till you reach your goal

[instrumental]

And you find that here you are

And it's just that bridge too far

And you know you just can't stay

Live to fight another day

And you know that

you gotta go

and you know that

And the time is now

And you've gotta go

You can't' make it so

You just gotta go

You can't change it so

And you've gotta go

You can't' make it so

You just gotta go

You can't change it so

Crazy To Love

This is another one about Rachel and I.

It was often commented  how well we got on and how infrequently we had disagreements.
We were making dinner for her family at her parents place one weekend, and after a while, her Dad called into the kitchen "It's awfully quiet in there….!"
We were just getting on with it.

In comparison to most other couples, we communicated very well, and always tried to reason with each other instead of launching into conflict, but even when we did have disagreements, they were never toxic, and we'd always work it out.


The song (rough draft): https://youtu.be/VqFm1PmLr2c

The lyrics: http://victor-thediary.blogspot.com.au/2015/09/crazyto-love-lyrics.html

CrazyTo Love Lyrics

There's not many times when we don't see eye to eye but we still care 

We work it out, that's what we're all about and we're still there.

Sometimes I feel

When you're next to me that

You must be crazy to love me

I bless the day that I loved you

Remember the time when we would go for a ride just you and I

Even if we were lost you would never get cross you would just smile

You hold me and say

That it's all OK

Sometimes you think

I must be crazy to love you

You bless the day that you loved me

Sometimes I feel

When you're next to me that

You must be crazy to love me

I bless the day that I loved you

You must be crazy to love me

I bless the day that I loved you

You must be crazy to love me

I bless the day that I loved you

[You know we'll always work it out

Not like those lovers who scream and shout

They'll do what's easy and walk away

We'll stand together and be OK]

Final Goodbye

This one is about a friend of mine who sadly passed away recently.

P.J is a woman in her late 50s. She had terminal cancer, and I met her and her family at karaoke. She really loved my music and bought both of my previous 2 CDs.

I sang Elton Johns 'Your Song' for her one Friday night, and she cried. Then I cried. I nearly couldn't finish the song. We hugged and everyone was moved.

A few weeks later, she had a relapse of her cancer and came into the ED while I was on duty. I oversaw her treatment and made sure she was as comfortable as possible. I then visited her on the medical ward a few days into her admission, which she really appreciated.

I saw her daughter out at karaoke that weekend, and she thanked me for helping look after her mum, and said she would really appreciate it if I could pay their home a visit and play a song for her. I happily did so, and it was a real pleasure to meet the extended family. They all really enjoyed hearing the music live.

They all came out to karaoke that weekend and I sang some of my original songs for P.J., which again, she really enjoyed.

She appeared to be doing really well with her cancer, but without my knowing, she took a rapid turn for the worse and passed away.

I went to the funeral, where her daughter told me that she buried my CD with her mother because she loved it so much.

Bishan and I were out recently, and we bumped into her son. "You're the doctor that looked after my mother, aren't; you?" he asked. "Yes I am" I replied.
"Thank you for everything you did for her. She loved you. You're a beautiful man." He hugged me.

Again, I was moved to tears.

"That was really powerful, Victor." Bishan said. I agreed.

This song is for her. Bishan is playing the lead.

The song: (rough draft):

The lyrics: http://victor-thediary.blogspot.com.au/2015/09/final-goodbye-lyrics.html

Final Goodbye Lyrics

You came along

Then you were gone

Just glad that I

Could make you smile

Goodbye my friend 

It's not the end

but now I know

you're not in pain

Rest now in peace

In a better place

Goodbye my friend 

It's not the end

Goodbye my friend 

We'll meet again

[instrumental]

Goodbye my friend 

It's not the end

Goodbye my friend 

We'll meet again

Goodbye my friend 

It's not the end

Goodbye my friend 

We'll meet again